Be gracious to me, O Lord,
For to you do I cry all the day.
Gladden the soul of your servant,
For to you, O Lord, do I lift up my soul.
David’s first request is for grace for his soul. He seems to know, with the heart condition he is in, changing the circumstances won’t change his heart. He is desperate. He needs hope.
And he can’t move ahead without it.
I’ve been there, crying out to the Lord all day. The circumstances are consuming me, overwhelming me. I can do little else. I can’t think; I can’t give; I can’t see a way forward.
I know to see change in me, I have to get it together. But I’m too lost in the midst.
I need to lift up, not the circumstances, but my soul. Unless I have faith in something bigger than myself, it is hopeless because I am hopeless.
What I need is gladness; gladness comes by grace.
Not gladness in the situation; not gladness in my abilities; not gladness in my strength. It’s gladness by the grace of God.
Many of you know I’m fighting an incurable cancer and have been for a long time. There is very little gladness in the process. But there is gladness in waking every day, knowing that God has some purpose of letting me wake up, giving me the opportunities of the day.
The adventure is in figuring out what that purpose is!
I know frozen fear well, not knowing how to move forward. Would you be willing to share some an experience when you were frozen?