Hurry Up…Wait

IMG_0223 copyI had forgotten how much I said “Hurry up…Wait” the first time I went through treatment — why wouldn’t I think I would be saying it the again? When the medical community wants action, they really push you to get your information in, but then there are all sorts of delays and communication gaps on their end.

All that to say, I did not start chemo on Monday as expected. Medications got delayed and were not delivered until Wednesday. Yesterday, as I started them, I had a bad headache but today it is better. It probably has more do to with the steroid I have to take 1/week (10 pills) so go along with the Revlimid. Today, my face is flushed and red and I hope I’m not getting the rash associated with the drug. Time will tell.

It was a sharp reminder when the package came in it’s special wrapping and all the warning labels that this is real. Even though it is oral and not infusion, it is highly controlled and toxic. And even though we are on a brief trip with friends, life is not normal. I know that as I look towards the future, this is the beginning point.

And I have choices. I can choose to be afraid. I can choose to be bitter. I can choose to detach or deny. I can choose where to put my faith and what my attitude will be.

In the meantime, I take my pills, count the days, pray, make memories and be faithful in little things. I appreciate those who think/pray for me so much during the journey. I do believe we gain strength from others.

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10 Responses to Hurry Up…Wait

  1. Kathy Eshleman says:

    Dear Maggie,
    I have been thinking about you and praying for you since Paul told me what you guys have been going through. Please put me on your mailing list so that I can get these updates.
    I wish I knew what I could do to help. I was glad to hear you are with friends, though that can be difficult sometimes.
    I am praying that God will heal you in all the ways He is able. I also pray that you will be “surprised by joy.”
    Let’s keep in touch.

  2. Jennie Lee Halfhill says:

    Praying for you Maggie, your a Blessing to so many!<3

  3. Leah Rictor says:

    May God surprise you today with His heavy Presence. May you feel cradled in His care. Love you.

  4. Maggie, I always read your medical reports end to end. Your situation is my life’s horror scenario. Watching you face delays, trials, reversals and the ever present “end game” with grace, aplomb, humor and tenacity helps me to realize that if God allows me to go through something like this with Laurie, we can get through it just as you have. I love that the worst outcome is one of us walking streets of gold before the other. Thanks for giving me and others a “window” into your precious lives. You and Roger are the best! Praying, as always. — Tip

  5. Karen Burroughs says:

    Thanks for the update, Maggie! You are a warrior! Praying for you.

  6. Marilyn Barnes says:

    Praying for you, Maggie!

  7. nancy beverly says:

    Praying for you, Maggie! So glad He has given us extra time to visit here, as your energy allows. Thanks for thinking of others when you could be just focusing on your own challenges! I pray He floods your life with unexpected big and little blessings as you walk through this new valley with Him.

  8. luchy says:

    You are a courageous woman, Maggie! May the Lord sustain you and let you know in many ways how special you are. Praying for you. Abrazos!

  9. Maggie says:

    Dear Maggie,

    I’ve been thinking of you since I found out you have to do the treatment, again.
    I read also your posts on your blog.
    I pray that the Lord Jesus will give you strength for today, peace and energy to continue to write about your journey. It is very inspiring! Thank you!

    With love, and appreciation,

  10. Maggie says:


    I wanted you to know that you and Maggie are in my prayers thoughts. As John, Nathan and I are talking through Summit supported missionaries today, you both are especially on my mind. I pray that Maggie is staying strong through her treatment and that you are finding the emotional space and courage to walk through this alongside her once again.

    If there are specific ways in which I can be praying for you both, I would love to know.

    Many blessings, Lauren Gaines – Administrative Assistant to John Parker

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